Early morning blogging guys, so I just got back home from getting my deliberation results. Yes, I got it right here in my magical hands -sparkle sparkle sparkle-. Okay, I'm so nervous on reading it, um... lets all read it together to know whether I have passed third year and go to fourth year OR fail and commit suicide after. Let's start....

After a thorough review and evaluation of the performance of your son/daughter, the administration and faculty wish to render the following report to you. This will furnish you with the necessary information you may need in making future plans for him/her.

Your son/daughter has fully accomplished the requirements for promotion to the next year level. Congratulations! Unless you wish to transfer him/her to another school, we shall be happy to re-admit him.

I PASSED OMGLOLWTFROFL!!!. Looks like I'm going to fourth year. Hope you guys did too, see yah next year.

Anyway I have to make this blog short 'cuz I'm too lazy to post a blog today.

Just a quick blog for today. So tomorrow is deliberation day in from 8 until 10, I have to rememeber that because that result is really important to me to know if I passed and move on the fourth year or not. Yes, I'm really nervous about what the results say, its really giving me nightmares at night. Well its kinda normal for me cuz I feel this like every year. So um... I just want to say good luck to you guys on your deliberation results, see you next year? Well I hope I do see you next year... well not really.

Last day of exams and last day of schools and HELL YEAH! it feels good to be finally out in school, now I can rest peacefully in my bed and sleep all day. More like, more work for me this summer, a summer job, me working for my daddy in his bussiness as a graphics designer. Yeah, its a pain in the fuckin' ass to be the most talented and the middle in the family, everything is focused on me, me and me. WHY ME!?!?

But who fucking cares if I suffer? No one really, they actually have fun with it. Just laugh your shit out about it, but at the end lets see who fuckin' laughs till I lose my breathe and die smiling at your fuckin' loss.

Speaking of which, there is this classmate of my mine who I thought to be a 'friend' of mine which came out to be NOT. She's full of those bitchness shit, she acts like she's 'oh, I'm so pretty and I'm cool' and she moves like she's disgusted on me or mad at me maybe for the reason that some people actually label me as 'emo' or something. But listen to this whore bitchness! Take a look at yourself before you judge me asshole, you ain't pretty nor beautiful, and I mean that literally. Let me shorten that last sentence for you, YOU'RE UGLY!!! So you don't have the freakin' right to disgust me, I'd understand you if you were a hotter woman but no, take a fucking look at yourself at the mirror just for once and see for yourself. You know what I want to do to you right now? Squish your skull, poke your eyes, slam your head on the wall and put all your organs out. But you know what, I'd rather do something else than that, you're not worth the pain and time. If that's how you treat me then fine, that's what I'm going to treat you too. FUCK YOU, if you asked me why I'm like that to you, why notice my actions towards you than your motives towards me. I treated you as a friend but you treated me like trash. I tried to confront you but you never seem to be open.

Yeah, last day of school and someone is already pissing off, who is she? Its something confidencial, at list I'm still concerned of her on that. Anyway, I'm still going to see her tomorrow in our last day of SAP. I'M BRINGING SALAD FOR TOMORROW.

One more thing, I heard that the guy that I like in school is going to transfer schools next year and I never even had the chance to introduce myself to him. But your efforts, Vecelle, of introducing me to the guy was most appreciated but because of my shyness towards him, it all went to a failure but thank you really much for trying. Knowing that he is transfering makes me depressed and all, feels like I'm being left by my own boyfriend even he isn't. Woah. I blame myself for being so slow, not making a move and this and that, and I regret for wasting my time only staring at his face and not doing anything about what I feel for the guy. I feel worthless, that's all I can say. If only I can just have one more chance, just one last chance...

Well, I guess my summer will be as usual, Matt alone remembering the painful memories of highschool. (sigh)

Don't you just hate a very hot season that you can actually cook egg yolks under the sun or is it just me? Wait a minute, its just me. Well as you can see I'm sick, I'm having running nose, cough, colds etc. and it feels like hell because I'm temperature is really high. My breathe actually feels hot and when I close my eyes, its really hot. Damn fuckin' sickness. Just hope I can go to school tomorrow because its our Sabayan and its really important for it is my Filipino Class Standing, my life hates me and that's all...

Anyway, school year 2008-2009 class pictures are now distributed to us (YEY!!!) and damn I look ugly at the picture so I'm kinda ashamed to show it to other people, I'm not that proud of my face, I feel ugly and old but others say I look good but it just doesn't feel like it. You know what I mean? Things can get a little bitchy, so yeah.

Tomorrow is our last Friday being with our teachers and on monday is our last Monday being with our teachers, aw... I will really miss my section 3-31 St. Eanswida, best section I ever had because 1-11 was kinda messy and 2-24 was kinda bitchy. And after the final examinations ,which is due next week, we are now fourth years next year! (I hope...). Are you exited? Me, I'm not. Why? Everything only happened like yesterday, when I was in first year where I met my first three friends Michelle, Mariel and Gabbie, and met other new friends like Quinnie, Keith, Jean, Monica, Gab, Pia, Bella, Gaea, Karen, Celle, Charlene, Angela, Ziannah, Edinel, Sam, Steff, Nina, Kayla etc. and next thing you know I'm already in third year that is already going to be fourth year, the year almost to be graduates. I don't want to leave them just yet, I want to spend more time with them but school works and others are keeping me away from them, so yeah. And some of them are now actually ignoring me for who I am which is sad and I didn't had the time to talk to them about it. It feels really sad to leave all of them soon but we still have to move on and prepare for the yet to come but our friendship will never end, hope they never forget me as time goes on. A little something I want to tell them before we all graduate: "Time runs fast but never give up catching up with it."

Wow, that sounded like I'm already going today soon or tomorrow but anyways, that's all. Before I go, I would like to say sorry to my leader in the sabayan, I didn't attend practice, its just that I'm sick today and I needed to go for a check up which is scheduled today, so sorry, really sorry, but I know all the steps already so no need to worry. Oh, and tomorrow we will make ice cream in our chemistry, our flavour is strawberry, yum... That's all guys, good evening.

Submissions of projects from A - Z back to back stress, times double the pressure and maximum the heat. Its really just a hell week if you ask me, feel the devil's burning touch, nakz. Come to think of it, devil's burning touch kinda sounds pervertly. Now don't start thinking green about it guys. Anyway, its deadline week where we pass all our requirements (a.k.a. projects, assigments, homeworks etc.) which is really hard for me to handle since I'm a lazy person, I haven't quite done my all my projects yet. You can actually see right now my face of nervousness that I might fail third year but I'm going to try my best this last week of being with my section St. Eanswida and my subject teachers.

Anyway, I made a checklist on the requirements I need to pass:

[O] Chemistry Activity Portfolio

[O] English Newpaper Book Report

[O] Filipino Sabayang Pagbigkas

[O] G.I.C.P. Career Portfolio

[O] G.I.C.P. Module

[O] Music Religious Dance

[O] P.E. Practical Exam "Sepak Takraw"

[O] Social Action Program

[O] Social Science Stand Paper

[O] Theology Movie Review

[O] T.L.E. Car Show Portfolio

Am I missing something? Hope I didn't.

Well anyways, here's another issue in my school that I want to talk about, I'm a guy filled with issues, so here it goes. Its about my friends in school, mostly the ones in section 3-30. They act like they don't know me, like they don't care about me. Just because people call me "emo" or "scene kid" or whatever doesn't mean they should treat me like one. They sometimes insult joke me but never said "It was only a joke", they could've said it was only a joke because I take things seriously if they never told me that. I feel like I'm being left out, really, I'm really a failure with friends. Actually I think they never considered me as a friend, just like what one of my 'so-called friend of mine' said that "You're just an aquaintance of mine". You know what the problem is? They seek a friend that is perfect for them, not me who is nothing but a boring, depressed, pessimistic guy in the corner. I'm not perfect but could they at list look at themselves too.


I just want to slap this blog post to their faces, shove it in their mouth and hope that they choke to death.


I really miss the past, where things were just fine, flowers still bloomed, butterflies all groomed, trees and grasses dance, hearts in romance. But not today, where things are vine, dark clouds loom, love glooms, smiles of every faces are frowns, happiness drown. By the way this is a poem by Driggor in DeviantArt which comes out to be me. That's all for today, see you later.