Last day of exams and last day of schools and HELL YEAH! it feels good to be finally out in school, now I can rest peacefully in my bed and sleep all day. More like, more work for me this summer, a summer job, me working for my daddy in his bussiness as a graphics designer. Yeah, its a pain in the fuckin' ass to be the most talented and the middle in the family, everything is focused on me, me and me. WHY ME!?!?

But who fucking cares if I suffer? No one really, they actually have fun with it. Just laugh your shit out about it, but at the end lets see who fuckin' laughs till I lose my breathe and die smiling at your fuckin' loss.

Speaking of which, there is this classmate of my mine who I thought to be a 'friend' of mine which came out to be NOT. She's full of those bitchness shit, she acts like she's 'oh, I'm so pretty and I'm cool' and she moves like she's disgusted on me or mad at me maybe for the reason that some people actually label me as 'emo' or something. But listen to this whore bitchness! Take a look at yourself before you judge me asshole, you ain't pretty nor beautiful, and I mean that literally. Let me shorten that last sentence for you, YOU'RE UGLY!!! So you don't have the freakin' right to disgust me, I'd understand you if you were a hotter woman but no, take a fucking look at yourself at the mirror just for once and see for yourself. You know what I want to do to you right now? Squish your skull, poke your eyes, slam your head on the wall and put all your organs out. But you know what, I'd rather do something else than that, you're not worth the pain and time. If that's how you treat me then fine, that's what I'm going to treat you too. FUCK YOU, if you asked me why I'm like that to you, why notice my actions towards you than your motives towards me. I treated you as a friend but you treated me like trash. I tried to confront you but you never seem to be open.

Yeah, last day of school and someone is already pissing off, who is she? Its something confidencial, at list I'm still concerned of her on that. Anyway, I'm still going to see her tomorrow in our last day of SAP. I'M BRINGING SALAD FOR TOMORROW.

One more thing, I heard that the guy that I like in school is going to transfer schools next year and I never even had the chance to introduce myself to him. But your efforts, Vecelle, of introducing me to the guy was most appreciated but because of my shyness towards him, it all went to a failure but thank you really much for trying. Knowing that he is transfering makes me depressed and all, feels like I'm being left by my own boyfriend even he isn't. Woah. I blame myself for being so slow, not making a move and this and that, and I regret for wasting my time only staring at his face and not doing anything about what I feel for the guy. I feel worthless, that's all I can say. If only I can just have one more chance, just one last chance...

Well, I guess my summer will be as usual, Matt alone remembering the painful memories of highschool. (sigh)