Its already May 26 and its almost school days again. I don't know why but I feel a bit nervous of going back to school. It feels like I'm running out of oxygen, like I'm not gonna make it once I step my first foot back to school. Maybe I just need a hug... maybe but who will do that for me? My parents? Not really, they never hug me. My brothers and sister? Never hugged them ever since. My friends? That will be weird. So that's only leads to my girlfriend, oh wait I forgot, we broke up already. What a depressing life I have, so boring, so dull and so grey. There is also this feeling I have that I'm already useless to this world and I don't deserve to live anymore. Sometimes whenever I think of these things my heart beats faster than the usual. It beats so fast I can't catch enough air and it makes me hard to breathe. But what do you care about my life...

Just another boring, grey day doing nothing but sit here, play the computer, listen to music and chat with random people I know. Well anyway everyday is a boring, grey day in my life, that's why I always say "Life is so unfair for me".

I just got back home yesterday after visiting my grandmother's house for one week (May 11 - May 18). So how was it, well as far as I know it rained and rained in there and it was really boring staying inside my grandma's house and watch, eat and sleep inside the room.

It may be unbelieveable but yeah its really real. So after for a year or maybe months of my lifetime without updating my blog, well now I'm back. It may be a lot of work posting here everyday but I can do it even though I think I can't but I have friends that will always be there for me.

It's really been a long time, many things changed like me. Wow, I changed a lot since the my last post in 2007. Well time really does pass by that fast, so is life I really moved on from that old happy kid into a more depressing one, it's a long story.

That's all for today, its kinda late for now...