Its already May 26 and its almost school days again. I don't know why but I feel a bit nervous of going back to school. It feels like I'm running out of oxygen, like I'm not gonna make it once I step my first foot back to school. Maybe I just need a hug... maybe but who will do that for me? My parents? Not really, they never hug me. My brothers and sister? Never hugged them ever since. My friends? That will be weird. So that's only leads to my girlfriend, oh wait I forgot, we broke up already. What a depressing life I have, so boring, so dull and so grey. There is also this feeling I have that I'm already useless to this world and I don't deserve to live anymore. Sometimes whenever I think of these things my heart beats faster than the usual. It beats so fast I can't catch enough air and it makes me hard to breathe. But what do you care about my life...